I don’t think many people realize how much strength it takes to pull yourself out of a poisonous situation with someone you love deeply. So if you’ve done that today, or any day, I’m proud of you.
I’m sorry. The past six months have been an absolute whirlwind for me. I have endured the most painful moments of my life within the last six months. I have lost people who I thought I would have forever in the last six months. I have been broken down in the last six months. I have had my heart thrown and shattered all over the floor in the last six months. I have screamed, cried, and punched many walls in the last six months.
I have also got myself back up in the last six months. I have fought like hell to find out who I really am in the last six months. I have connected with my roots in the last six months. BUT, IN THE LAST SIX MONTHS I HAVE NEVER LOST MYSELF.
Man, have I learned so much about what life is all about just in half a year..
My heart is exhausted, but SO FULL. My heart is full because I have drawn myself near the people who have, and always will, be down for me. And unfortunately, I have let go of all the people who held me back. This is something I wish every single one of you will be able to do because once you do, MAN DOES YOUR HEART BECOME FULL!
It’s not easy. And it never will be. IM SORRY. But there is no better feeling than the feeling of being FREE and ALIVE.
I know letting someone go isn’t easy. But you have to be willing to lose someone else before losing yourself.
You are more important. Period.
So here’s a piece of advice:
LET GO when you’re hurting too much. Give up when love isn’t there. And move on when thing’s just can’t go back to what it was like before. WHO KNOWS WHO IS OUT THERE LOOKING FOR SOMEONE WHO IS EXACTLY.LIKE.YOU.
So what do we do now?
We experience life in all possible ways. Good-bad, bitter-sweet, dark-light, summer-winter.
We experience all the dualities. We know that we aren’t afraid of experience because the more experience we have, the more mature we become.
It’s so easy to just become comfortable. But that is so dangerous. And can become toxic.
Live a life full of peace, love, happiness, color, adventure,…. and anything else your heart desires. Live your life free of
hate and judgement and FULL OF LOVE and I promise you…. you will find your inner peace.
In the last six months:
I have been given a new life.
I have new opportunities
And now that I am psychosis free..
I AM READY TO LIVE A LIFE FULL OF HAPPINESS.
And for what it’s worth, it’s never too late to be whoever you want to be.
I hope you live a life you’re proud of.
…and if you find that you’re not,
I hope you have the strength to start over.